Self Doubt 2.0

I had planned to write a post celebrating my journey. Today, ‘Uff Yeh Ladki’ completes six months of  its digital publish. Instead, here I am. Irony?

So what brings me here with a continuation of my old post?

Self doubt, of course.

I know I shouldn’t; but I do obsess over the ratings and reviews. Incidentally, yesterday when I was browsing through my books, I noticed that one of my novelettes got its first rating on amazon. A one star. The reviewer has said nothing about the story but bashed me as a person and as a writer.

My immediate reaction was to shut down my laptop and stop editing the novel that I promised myself to publish in December this year.

I am drowning in self-doubt as I write this post. I know nothing about writing. My vocabulary is limited and my imagination sucks. I am not good enough.

My brother came to my rescue again and insisted that if I stop writing, I will never get better. I think he is just being nice and supportive.

My first ever novel draft is currently at a 67K words and 30 chapters. I was supposed to be contacting fellow bloggers for a book tour and perhaps a few advance reviews.

But now, I think I am going back to being just the plain, boring and oft frustrating software developer.

Shabana Mukhtar


3 Comments Add yours

  1. Sara Saif says:

    Please don’t give up. Such reviews are to be expected. I myself have written a few, though I always criticize the author for his/her writing I don’t bash them as a person.

  2. Faseeha Ahmad says:

    don’t give up…

I try to moderate comments to filter out the trolls and weirdo. Your comments are welcome and opinion matter, but don't come here just to promote your content, and be nice, okay? Everyone is entitled to opinions. Alright, now go ahead, the comment section is your oyster. (I'm such a smarty pants)